Man by Relient K
This weeks song is “Man” by Relient K. Golly gee, it resonates with me. I actually feel it in my soul. I feel like I’ve made a mess of my life – I regret so many choices I’ve made out of immaturity and mostly fear, and I want something to kick my butt into gear.
Nope, that’s IT as of “Welcome to Waikiki S2” episode 11, I officially am Woo Sik. Ouch.
Like…the way he cries at the end, finally admitting that he’s NOT ok? I feel that. He’s been holding everything in. What? you ask. How does he hold everything in when he gets irritated so easily??
He gets irritated so easily because he holds everything in. And because anger seems to be the only emotion he’s comfortable expressing. He can’t let other people know that he feels anything else, especially not Soo Yeon, because his feelings could be a burden, so he tries to grin and bear it. But he can’t.
Also, my posts may not feature pictures for a while (or at least not pictures specific to the content) because I’m in a crisis of conscience as to whether I should use photos from the internet or not. So I will try to use some photos, and break up my giant walls of text. OTL
I’ve finally started seriously reading an abridged version of The Three Kingdoms that I bought, what, at least two years ago now? From what I’ve searched about it, it’s a rather integral piece of East Asian myth/legend even beyond China, so I found it important to read. It follows three men who meet when volunteering themselves in service to their country, and essentially pledge themselves blood brothers. We follow the (tragic) happenings as they fight for their country and their ruler, and the various coups that lead to the fracturing of this brotherhood.
It’s tough for now. The academic reading muscles have atrophied (as have the writing ones) but, with more frequent use they’ll be back up to speed eventually.
The Reacting to the Past class I took in college that I’ve probably mentioned, wherein we roleplayed as Chinese officials, oddly prepared me for reading this. All governments are filled with corruption and intrigue and have their own rituals; but the rigid, ritualized machinations of East Asian governments have long fascinated – and frustrated – me.
I played a Confucianist Chinese official in the court of Emperor Wan-Li at a time of upheaval – natural disasters and fear of invasion by the Mongols were a threat, and on top of that Wan-Li wanted to name a successor. He wanted to name the younger son of his concubine, but the Confucianists in the group wanted him to name his eldest son successor in keeping with tradition. Each person had a very specific role and goals to fulfill – we had someone play the Emperor and the First Grand Secretary, and the rest of us were just called…secretaries, if my memory doesn’t fail me.
As a Confucianist I had to walk the fine line of basically criticizing the Emperor without criticizing the Emperor and, wow, was that stressful. Mix Confucian ideals with the Mandate of Heaven and you get impossibility.
One thing I did enjoy: since I wore the wrong colors to class and could’ve gotten in trouble if the Emperor noticed, I decided to follow my character’s own thinking. I brought it up to the Emperor, apologized profusely, gave him a chocolate bar, and said I would reflect on my lack of virtue. I also pretty much kowtowed to my classmate in public (with these classes things must also be done outside of class, alliances formed and such). I think I unsettled him and I relish that because I don’t unsettle people easily.
I have discovered a new cafe that I didn’t initially know was run by Koreans – they just have really good (expensive) coffee – but knowing and studying Korean has gotten me a few free drinks so I can’t really complain about it. Plus, it has a nice atmosphere – plenty of light but somewhat cave-like, really, and cool.
Matcha can be really, really strong. I’ve just eaten a matcha affogato and while I don’t mind a matcha latte…matcha ice cream is too much. Also the nuts on top – I don’t like nuts in my sweet. Ah, well! I tried something new.
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